Neutral.

so in love with these colors right now.

FREEZE! oh wait, too late.

I should write more often. I love going back to my old xanga posts. Starting at year 2002 and then skip to same month, 2003. 2004. 2005... all the way to 2009. Its surprising how much I've stayed the same throughout the years. Sure, I've grown. But I'm still me. That's a reassuring thought.

I always tell people that I do not enjoy school. I did not celebrate my coming back to school as a postgrad. People tell me I'm crazy. School is so much better than work. I guess God's just blessed me with a job that I love. But after re-reading posts from high school and undergrad, I see now what people miss from those years. I miss my "younger me". The me that would relish in new discoveries and cherish countless hours spent with friends. Nowadays, all I can think about is "How will I pay for my next tank of gas?" or "How can pursuing this profit me in the future and further my success at fill in goal here?" Summers are not meant for "beaching" anymore. No, summers are instead filled up with opportunities to pretty up my resume or lead this event and attend meetings and make more money and... and... and... the list goes on. When did I grow up? When did friends become an accessory and not a necessity?

Again, I am so glad no one knows about this blog.